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hopeless bleak dispair (they might be giants)

Fri, 13 Oct 2006 00:26:26 GMT

I never knew what everybody meant
By endless, hopeless, bleak despair
Until one day when I found out
The first time I ever left my house
It saw me and followed me home
And stayed with me for my whole life

For years and years I wandered the earth
Condemned to a life of bleak despair
Then, one day, I looked around and found it had disappeared

Hopeless bleak despair
It was always there
And then, one day, it disappeared
In a puff of smoke
In an unceremonious way
One day, it disappeared

All I had ever wanted in my life
Was only to be free of it
It drove away my family
It made me lose my job
Whenever anybody saw it
They'd say "get out of here"

For years and years I wandered the earth
Sick of my life, looking forward to death
Then, one day, I looked around and found it had disappeared

Hopeless bleak despair
It was always there
And then, one day, it disappeared
In a puff of smoke
In an unceremonious way
One day, it disappeared

Hopeless bleak despair
Hopeless bleak despair
Hopeless bleak despair

For years and years I wandered the earth
Until I died and went to hell 
But my despair had ascended to heaven
That's how I finally got rid of it

Hopeless bleak despair
It was always there
And then, one day, it disappeared
In a puff of smoke
In an unceremonious way
One day, it disappeared

Hopeless bleak despair
It was always there
And then, one day, it disappeared
In a puff of smoke
In an unceremonious way
One day, it disappeared


so, i put the webcomic back up, has enough updates to last a bit into november, 
still i have the do something for halloween. (as it is on a tuesday) 

besides that i need to get a job. *le sigh* before i collapse into a puddle of uneducated 
mopey emo melted jello.
which would be lame.

simul-cast with my live journal

Thu, 28 Sep 2006 03:01:27 GMT

so weird dream.

best tell it here because a blog is the best place to post rembleing nonsense thoughts that nobody is going to pay much attention to.

so anyway i fell asleep thinking about the people down at kennt station who seem to think i'm going to hell, and that they seem to think stacy is going there too because she had failed in leading me to the light of jesus, even though according to them one must seek out jesus on ones own, so i did, i went to go talk to jesus, he was playing ping pong but he said he could still listen. he looked like how everyone expects jesus to look, hippie jew with a tan in a white sheet and sandals, his halo was unremarkable in all respects just a simple golden ring hovering slightly behind his head.

"jesus, i dont get it," i said, "you were pretty cool and all you had some good things to say, but like ghandi said your followers arent like you at all," he rolled his eyes at this as he returend a serve on the pingpong table, he's heard that joke a million times.

"well kate, i really don't care if you're a christian or not, as long as you recoegnise that its better to be a good person than a bad one" he said "and if you don't like the my followeres don't listen to them. you should listen to your gut anyway, if it says you'd like to be a christian by all means do that, but if not thats ok too, people have to find their own path." he said still playing ping pong as he talked to me, the ball was a minature sun and it floated a little as it went back and forth, not like a usual ping pong ball.

"i see, well thanks for the advice" i said, i could see he needed to focus on his game

"anytime"

as i turned to leave i looked to see who he was playing ping pong against, krishna? buddah? no. i turned and saw a brilliant swirl of color and pasley the brilliance of a fractal and a childs finger painting swirled like the nursury of stars, she was holding one ping pong paddle in many possible arms at once, she grinned at me like the blast of a thousand super novas, and returned jesus's serve.

it was Eris Discordia, and she was winning.

i left their game and awoke smileing.

i have no idea what this means.

Monday, September 18, 2006

Mon, 18 Sep 2006 21:31:13 GMT

Your Famous Last Words Will Be:

"What we know is not much. What we don't know is enormous."

What Will Your Famous Last Words Be?

pirated from stacy, because i'm a pirate like that

1. Last "person" you kissed?
Osmo

2. How do you flush the toilet in public?
with my foot

3. Do you wear your seatbelt in the car?
duh

4. Do you have a crush on someone?
you shut your mouth before you get your self hurt.

5. Name one thing that you start to get tense about if you are close to running out of it:
pencil leads

6. What famous person do you (or other people) think you resemble?
nichole kidman (mom says this)

7. What is your favorite pizza topping?
hawiian

8. Finish this sentence: What the fuck...
did you do to that toaster?

9. Do you pop/crack your knuckles?
never, little bubbles of nitrogen don't do it for me.

10. What song do you dislike?
the black eyed peas.
10.a the black eye'd peas arent a song there a...
what i say about you shut your mouth?

11. Did just mentioning that song make it get stuck in your head?
*lalalalala* i cant hear you cow town COW TOWN GODAMNIT!!

12. What are your super powers?
i can fly, and locate books in a library.

13. Peppermint or spearmint?
wintergreen.

14. Where are your car keys?
i dont have a car
14a. what kind of loser dosen't have a car?
ones with bikes and home made knives.

15. Who[se] answers to this questionnaire do you want to hear?
don't care really, (hi mom! *waves*)

16. What's your most annoying habit?
being wrong

17. Where did you last go on vacation?
Tonasket

18. If you could punch one person in the nose and get away with it, who would it be?
Markie

19. What is your best physical feature?
my legs

20. What CD is closest to you right now?
Cavalia soud track

21. What 3 things can always be found in your refrigerator?
Milk, >30 diffrent condements

22. What superstition do you believe/practice?
hanging a horse skull over your door way will scare off neighbors.

23. Do you talk on your cell phone when you drive?
never

24. What are your favorite sayings?
your mom's a water retention pond

25. Who was the last person you talked to?
Mom (in person) Stacy (online)

26. When is your birthday?
december 7th

27. What song(s) do you sing most often in the shower?
cow town

28. If you could go back or forward in time would you and where would you go?
oh fuck no, messing with the fabric of space time just for kicks? no no no!

29. What is your favorite Harrison Ford movie?
who?

30. What CD is in your stereo?
i dont have a sterio, my new room dose not have room for it in the book case*shakefist*

31. What OCD qualities do you have?
petting people's hair.

32. How many kids do you plan on having?
2

33. If you could kiss anyone famous who would it be?
Jack -fucking- Sparrow xD

34. Would you really want to kiss someone you didn't know?
dude, do you not understand? its Jack Sparrow!
34a. dosent he have like syphillus?
you cant get syphillus by kissing a pirate, i'd have to be a bit more than that.
34b. and isint he fictional?
you didnt specify theyhad to be real for all we know i could have picked the weasly twins
34c. yes they are cute
indeed

35. What do you do when no one is watching?
yell at the dogs, post on me blogs

36. If they made a movie about your life, what actor/actress would play you?
damn that would be boreing. nichole kidman.

37. Would you rather die in a blaze of glory or peacefully in your sleep?
blaze of glory at the age of 130

38. What candy, from when you were a kid, do you miss the most?
Warheads.

39. What is your favorite movie?
the triplets of bellevelle

40. What favorite band have seen in concert?
Flogging molly

41. Have you ever been in love?
the technical answer would be no.
41a. oh come on what wass all the defensive answers before all about then?
you shutting up.

42. Do you talk to yourself?
no
42a are you aware thats a lie?
yeah kinda
42b did you just not want to admit it to your self?
yeah, i dont like to think the lonelyness got to me
42c oh buck up you twice damned emo
*sniff*

43. Is there anybody you just wish would fall off the face of the earth?
yes, oh yesss.

Friday, August 25, 2006

Fri, 25 Aug 2006 00:16:31 GMT

You Should Own a Husky

Athletic, free-spirited, and perfect for cuddling

What Kind of Dog Should You Have?

ok so not much going on, i've been drawing and im done with the commishions i took from DA but i'll need stacy's scanner if im ever going to get them up.

msn is borking like a mad thing so i've been useing trillian for the time being *le sigh*

dinner with dad tonight, mom has insisted that i get a job so i'll need my social security number fom him i guess. mom wants me to work for the democrats and i guess its a nobnle enough cause.

in other news im on a quest to re-read the entire contents of my book case and have begun with reading all my harry potter books, this has of course spawned some devoius ideas for some kind of costume party, but i dont know how many people would be interested in dressing up as dumbledore's army.

i know i would, things i'll need for it though would be some kind of skirt (and not the classic short school girl uniform skirt, i havent the figure for it)

i was thinking a feild hockey skirt like this one and of course the tie and sweatervest
if ican wrangle it, it will be awesome.

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

Tue, 15 Aug 2006 06:36:11 GMT

Your True Love Is an Aquarius

Why you'll love an Aquarius:

Independent yet devoted, you'll appreciate the unique approach to love Aquarius takes.
You both see love as a bit of a game, and Aquarius will challenge you until you're completely hooked.

Why an Aquarius will love you:

You're secure enough to give Aquarius tons of space - even if it means separate interests and friends.
You have the brains to keep Aquarius engaged and curious. And the passion to change the world together!

What Sign Is Your True Love?

You Are a Dreaming Soul

Your vivid emotions and imagination takes you away from this world
So much so that you tend to live in your head most of the time
You have great dreams and ambitions that could be the envy of all...
But for you, following through with your dreams is a bit difficult

You are charming, endearing, and people tend to love you.
Forgiving and tolerant, you see the world through rose colored glasses.
Underneath it all, you have a ton of passion that you hide from others.
Always hopeful, you tend to expect positive outcomes in your life.

Souls you are most compatible with: Newborn Soul, Prophet Soul, and Traveler Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

NLA near you

Sat, 12 Aug 2006 05:57:24 GMT

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what part of "secret club" don't you understand?

Friday, August 04, 2006

Fri, 04 Aug 2006 20:37:37 GMT

Your Geek Profile:

Fashion Geekiness: Highest
Academic Geekiness: High
Music Geekiness: High
Movie Geekiness: Moderate
SciFi Geekiness: Moderate
Gamer Geekiness: Low
Geekiness in Love: Low
General Geekiness: Low
Internet Geekiness: Low

How Geeky Are You?

well thats it then

Thu, 27 Jul 2006 01:06:26 GMT

no more riding the medium bus.

shows over *makes shoooing motions to empty auditorium*

i might make a webcomic in the future but now is not that time, i might go major in earth sciences and the only remnant of my artistic leanings will be doodles on the edges of my feild notebooks of country rocks.

i might get run over tomorrow by a car who for some reason CANNOT POSSIBLY SEE A BYCYLEIST GODAMN ITS NOT LIKE IM WEARING SOME SORT OF STEALTH BRIGHT ORANGE CYCLEING VEST AM I THAT HARD TO SEE????!!!

godamnit.

just had to get that off my chest, i've been bikeing home from summer school and up to the library reciently and when im on the bike i've noticed i have some sort of half pedestrian half motorist status that renderes me invisible to anyone in a car.
the thought process must go something like this; "huh a moveing thing, too fast to be a person, too small for a car, no noise like a motorcycle therefore it must not exist!"

this can be a little unnerveing i've had to take evasive action a few times to avoid hitting cars trying to pull out on to the road when they're stopped in the measily little bike lane. *cough shoulder cough*

so back to the lack of webcomic, reasons include

i have no new comics
the filler comics suck
the normal comics suck
there is no plot
there never was going to be a plot contrary to unpopular opinion
getting my grandmother not to read it means it has to go away,
it was a senior project, i now near super senior-dom,
i just dont want to.

thats basicly it, if you hanker for webcomics go read http://www.narbonic.com/ now that the archives are open.

lets see here what else?
oh right *Hi Mom!* (wave) mom told me she reads this and gave me a mini lecture on information avaleable to the public.
im not partyicularaly worried, aside form the horrible spelling there isint much objectionable about what i choose to do on the intarweb, its like mom checking in on a party i'm at but all thats happening is a game of monopoly.
kind of comforting really.

in non good familial news, my paternal blood grandmother has seen fit to send me a letter impuneing my honor on the basis of some loony friend of her's dream.
to say that i am appalled and hurt would not quite do this justace.
to put this into context, i am not known for my manners and poise (alright i'm known but more infamous than well regarded ) this grandmother in particular has in the past taken it upon her self to remind me to be tactfull
(and insulted the wattses, and liked me more than my sister, and been kind of the hippy version of creepy and tryed to psycoanalize me at every possible moement , but lest not go there shalll we?)
at every possible opprotuneity, claiming some sort of superiority of charactor in this regard.

i beleived her, the wall of the men's room in left texas likely has more tact than i do, but then this same grandmother decides on the whim of some friend of her's i've never met to send me possibly the most insulting peice of correspondance i have ever come in contact with.

seriously i've had enough of her, my return letter will be "dear grandmother, thank you for the letter. Kate" typed on a plain sheet of paper.

i have no idea what the hell is wrong with my non-immedeate family (i know exactly whats wrong with the immedate ones) moms side is crazy, and dad's side is Deceptively crazy.

i miss stacy and other human beings i havent seen sence they all graduated and got lives, i have to get a yearbook from jr year to Kyle, (they were throwing the old ones away and jr year was the best of the yearbooks) finish up these packets (finished: 4/8 physics 3/7 maths) and have my minigraduation before everyone goes off to college.

then perhaps a job and greenriver?
the future is looking brighter already!

Tuesday, June 27, 2006

Tue, 27 Jun 2006 18:26:28 GMT

The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Fifth Level of Hell!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	Low
Level 2 (Lustful)	Low
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	Very Low
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Low
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	Very High
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Very High
Level 7 (Violent)	High
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	Very High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	High

Take the Dante's Inferno Hell Test

Greed:	Medium
Gluttony:	Very Low
Wrath:	High
Sloth:	Medium
Envy:	Low
Lust:	Very Low
Pride:	Low

Take the Seven Deadly Sins Quiz

You Are Death

You symbolize the end, which can be frightening.
But you also symbolize the immortality of the soul.
You represent transformation, rebirth of a new life.
Sweeping away the past is part of this card, as painful as it may be.

Your fortune:

Don't worry, this card does not predict death itself.
Instead it foreshadows the ending of an era of your life, one that is hard to let go of.
But with the future great new things will come, and it's time to embrace them.
Mourn for a while, but then face the future with humility and courage.

What Tarot Card Are You?